2010 is coming soon. as it is good to take account of my life and to testify the faithfulness and gracious of God. i thought i will record down the things that now, so that when 2010 ends, i can give glory to God for His faithfulness.
how easy is it to recongise other people weakness and struggles. it is very easy, not much work is need to do so. but how easy is it to recongise the strength or something to build up one another... hard, sometimes even need to think for a long time before something good can be said. which one helps? heard something recently from a preacher, "the more you mention something bad about someone, the more the person will struggle to overcome it, that person actually felt weaker each time you mention about it, but if you are able to mention something good about the person, it will give that person some strength to know that they can overcome it"
God, i'm weak. even my own heart is condenming me. Confusion are throw at me constantly. A step to walk thru the darkness had been declare and carry out. God, when will Your light shine and disperse the darkness? i'm like a blind person walking around the desert where there is no water, and even the water that i drink, are polluted water, that will cause the pain but wouldn't be able to kill me. God, please reveal to me the sin that i can repent and turn to walk back in Your way. But don't left me in that dark desert where i can't see You, even though You are around as there is nothing in this world that can seperate the love You have for me.
Your word is true. as hard as it is, i will choose to believe Your word.
I think i really need that to go thru 2010. Someone once told me that when i'm tired, stressed or troubled, there is the time that i will be in a "weak" state. the words/actions that i did during that time, very often if not everytime i regreted it. This year especially, i know it will be a time where i will be alone. Which is good in a certain way, that i will have lesser regrets in my life.